Shifting Slowly

You know the Nike motto, ‘Just Do It’, well that’s been my motto lately. I just got off the treadmill a bit ago.  This was after  I almost talked myself out of not getting on again. And why do I do this? Well because in my mind if I have made poor choices earlier in the day about something I ate or if I didn’t get on the treadmill yesterday or the day before, I make a cycle out of bad choice making. In my mind I have to have a good run of 3 days to at least talk myself into getting on the treadmill or doing cardio. Why? My brain does this thing where it over analyzes what or how I’ll feel on things to come.

For instance instead of talking myself into doing cardio regardless of the days earlier choices or the days past, I will say to myself this speech: “well, you ate like shit today and you haven’t done cardio in about 3 days and if you get on today you won’t be able to get on tomorrow because tomorrow you’ve got that thing and so you won’t be home. And don’t lie and say you’ll do it when you get home because you won’t.” And there, just like that, I can talk myself out of it for the day I’m living in and for the day that’s to come! Crazy woman!

Instead today I decided to shut that part of my brain up and remember that nothing is guaranteed. Not tomorrow, not the next minute or second and that all I have is this very moment and I truly believe that. My life has taken so many twists and turns, things came to me I never saw coming. So who knows if that “thing” I have set for tomorrow will happen and instead I may find myself at home being able to do another day of cardio. Or who knows if I will not be too tired when I get back from my day tomorrow to do cardio.  All I know for sure is that right now I want to do it, I have the time and gosh darn it, I’m gonna do it!

And this goes for anything in life, you can have a plan but there are no guarantees. The only guarantee is right now, this moment, so what are you gonna do with it?

With my, Just do It attitude of the last few years, even though it can sometimes still be a struggle, I have been able to do so many of the things that I always put off.  I am nearing the completion of a certification that I’ve started about 3 years ago.  I am waking up earlier than I ever have in all my life just to spend time with myself. I am finally seeing my potential as a person, as a writer, as a human being on this earth that was given a gift that I’ve taken for granted for far too long and I want to now share it with all of you.

Don’t waste your time on plans or on hopes of, “one day”.  Your one day is now. This very moment.  So just do it! Do whatever it is you want to do without hesitation or question or thoughts of ‘how?’ The doubts may come up, the anxiousness may dry your throat a bit,  your hands may become sweaty at the thought of just doing something for yourself. But I can guarantee you that once you put yourself first, you’ll start doing it more and more and that is what life is about-YOU, JUST DOING IT!